Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen
But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleedingI keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling
But nothings greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see
I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

me n my cousin at lunar












hi peeps!






been ages since i blogged. shall start from cny. well, same old visitings n all. went to his relative's place as well. anyway its always this 1 thing we love abt cny isn't it? red packets! haha. meantime, i got to know this person, who looks alot like kenny.



n comes valentine's day. the day some can't wait for while some dread for n wish this day never comes. for me it was jus another ordinary day. he wanted to meet up but i din return any of his calls nor smses. come to think of it i felt rather mean to him. he bought pressies for me, wanting to bring me out but i rejected him so hard. now i start to reminisce the things he did for me n how he treats me even though i know its impossible for us to get back again.




lotsa clubbing n drinking. lunar, dragonfly, mos, nana, bq, work. my time rotates around these places wit the new person i knew. been spending most of my time wit him these few weeks.




exams are nearing, i begin to feel panicky since i haven been studying, or i shld say i haven been very serious wit schwork this sem. so this period of time i spent was mugging in mac's or at home. but i have to admit i did not give my all for the preparation. thus, all the mugging din really pay off. kinda disappointed in myself for allowing all these shit to happen to me.




n subsequently holidays r here. which means results are soon to be out. really dread for this day to come. feeling like i'm taking a roller coaster ride that never ends. very contradicted n vexed regarding stuffs surrounding me. how i wish i know exactly wat i wan in life, n a direction to look ahead of. but i dun. n this person i spend a lot of time wit nowadays starts to make me lose directions of wat i felt was right. now i'm all confused n puzzled by all my doings again. can someone tell me if i made the right choice? i really dunno how long i can take all these anymore.

presentation day! omg. freaking scared i could shiver. haha. we were all panicking n rushing thru our "script" when lesson had begun. lol. n we rehearsed like umpteen times. n finally, its our group. i was 3rd to present, so i waited for lim bei n qq b4 me, which seems so damn fast. goodness. at last, my turn. went up to the platform, wondering if i did tremble. haha. i was like reading off the que card thats all. no expressions, no gestures, no nothing. i jus wan to get it over n done. so i jus blabbered on till that 2 mins is up. n thats it, presentation is finally finally over. yeah! lol.

aft sch, went to meet kim at bugis to 'cny hunt' again. wahaha. n again, within 2 hours this time, i grabbed several tops. its so damn cheap n pretty nice, so " bu mai dui bu qi zhi ji" u know. wahaha. while kim, only got 1 top cos she considered like so long before she finally bought it.

went to work straight aft the trip. n something pissed me off. dun think being the boss' fren gives u the privilege to order ppl ard. u dun pay each time u come but u still do the drinking. n u r not the one that pays me but orders me to do this n that. hello! who u think u r? ur jus 1 old fucking china woman who has no manners at all u get it? i hope u return to ur bloody china n never come back!

ok i shall stop cursing n swearing, for i believe in karma. =)

went cny shopping wit him at marina. within like 3-4 hours, we had ard 7 carriers. wahaha. but din manage to buy alot of tops though. aft that, went to shiqi's bday bbq at her aunt's place. kinda ulu. haha. was the last to reach again, as qq said. lol. started eating the moment i reached. played poker aft everything. mark was banker. at first he kept losing, but in the end he got it all back! not shiok. lol. so when the game ended i lost like 2 bucks? lol. bu hao wan de. n while we all were busy with poker, momo n sheila kept themselves busy wit vodka! these 2 kukus got high n sheila fell, once again. she was as red as ang ku kueh lor. omg. the whole place was filled wit their voices. anyways, the nite ended well. happy 19th bday, qq. haha.




from front: me, sheila, bday girl, momo
back: dunno who, kenneth, shaunie, ah long, mark.





last pic before we left.

din go to sch today. went to meet qq, cy, n elgin wit him for qq's bday. initially wanted to go club nana, the former momo. but turned out it became a thai live band club. haha. his fren who worked there actually bluffed him about the ambience there. lol. disappointment.





cabbed down to dbl o to check out their happenings but ended up, we din go in. guess where we went? back to club nana! haha. at least they played rnb on n off, the price was more than reasonable. so yup, played till nearing 5 n, hsh. =)

went to sch as usual, n something amazing happened in lec today. my lecturer fell n fainted!! wahaha. she was apparenty passing us some papers n then she tripped over something n fell. we thought she fell cos i cant properly from the back of lec. but aft awhile, wit a few ppl going up intending to help her up, she din. she was lying face down on the ground not moving, but still breathing. lol. we all went down to c wat happened n this is so amazing, her shoes flew far away from her, so she was lying there bare-footed, face down, n her hands covering her face. can u imagine this scenario? haha. then the management ppl came n dismissed us. haha. when we left, she was still there, motionless. haha. i actually tot she wanted some face after she fell so she decided to fake her faint. lol. i know im being mean but cant rule out this possiblilty ma. lol.

aft lec, went out n discussed abt our cb project. then 1 person criticized our work to the max. thanks for ur concern but u r so crude n so 'manner-less' i cant stand the sight of ur fucking arrogant face.

then went to momo's place at nite to do project wit lim bei, qq and sulin. haha. they took 3FREAKING HOURS to settle down n start n the project ok. i almost died there. n i was maria for the nite lor. cooked for all the CBs. n lim bei ate 2 packets! haha. he was freaking hungry he could eat zone up. WAHAHA. aft that, project, project n more projects.

slept at 7. 7 in the morn ok. haiz. n the bloody lim bei still dare to laugh at my dark circle. bloody hell. was awaken by that bloody lim bei, who lacks sleep n became bonkers. he practically tried to wake us up every hour. hahaha. woke up at 11plus when everyone else was still pig. finally got to dig everyone up n left momo's place at 2. lesson was at 2 n we left her place at 2. haha. pestered long to send us outside n finally went to sch. we were so poorthing. haha. had to eat in the cab. haha. reached lec n half the class mia-ed. sighs. aft lec, we still need to continue wit, project, project. n PROJECT. =(

sch, work, then went to jackson's bday at o point. i think he was alr high by the time i reached. haha. momo came awhile later. zing, jasmine, lynn, watermelon and jackson's frens were there too. haha. we shifted to 6am aft o point closed n jackson was dead drunk alr. aft a while, the poor boy was lying on the dirty floor along bq. haha. n his fren accompanied him outside. played guessing games wit them n kept losing to 1 of jackson's fren. lol. n of cos i was forfeited to drink. at the end of everything, i could only rem myself under my block alr. haha. n watermelon told me i fell n my nose bleed. n jackson's fren told me i burned his hand wit my cigarette. wahaha. i dun even rem that.